Once Beloved

I lie awake, yet unable to move,Pinned down by your cold embrace.Between your cooing encouragements,I choke on my atrophied memories,Unable to recall the fragmented thoughts,Of every kiss you laid upon my chest,Burning holes down to my soul,Like so many cigarette burns,But I need that,I want that so much,That even as you tear me apart,Flesh, thoughts, … Continue reading Once Beloved →

Pax Leucotomy

I think that I will go mad,This, my conclusion,So that I can stop thinking.And the kind doctor,Will relieve from me pressure,The weight of living,(And worse, remembering life)By simply saying:"Poor thing, take your medicine,"And though I'll complain,What relief shall flow through me,To know that my faults,Are not really mine to bear.So I shall smile then,Just before … Continue reading Pax Leucotomy →

Immortal Lessons

There is a hermit atop the mountain,Who is said to have attained Truth,And is willing to share their findings,To those who struggle to follow them,But when I scrambled to the summit,Bloody, winded, and utterly spent,Their corpse greeted me with a smile,And whispered only silence.

O my bloodless heart

O my bloodless heart,Nailed to the mirror,How did you fare,Exposing your self so,Shattered at a glance,Bled dry over time?I'll remove the nail,But the hole remains,And though you're whole,By the mirror's judgment,I'll still be broken. Prompt: from the kind writers over at the pub, dVerse, “Heart” as part of their Quadrille Series #134.

Dear Friend

She hiked up the mountain path,With the intent of leaving behind a note,But upon reaching the cliffside,Decided against it,And sent me a picture instead.

I suffer illness / is my death enough

I suffer illness,A static deep in the mind,That I wish killed me.Instead, it forces me toRecall my lost love for you. No exorcism,Will rid me of this demon,Who haunts my last breath,For at the end of all things,It means that you loved me once. Is my death enough,To rid myself of your gift:This knife that … Continue reading I suffer illness / is my death enough →

Lovely Double Suicide

Fever dreams remind me that I'm a child,That behind layers of memories,Worn to conceal futures defiled,You remain a part of me,My muse, my lover, my hateful self. Why do you still smile in my nightmares,With lips wet with blood and tears,While I wither beneath your stares,Do you hate me so much,That being carried in my … Continue reading Lovely Double Suicide →

In my youth, I was drowned

In my youth, I was drowned,Falling,Peacefully,Into the blessed black,Of the deep sea beneath,Until her hands found mine,And forced air into my lungs once more. So, of course, I loved her.She had saved me, after all,She cared for me,And told me she loved me,Her hands always holding mine,As though afraid to let me go. But then,She … Continue reading In my youth, I was drowned →

I exult the friend

I exult the friend,Who sullies their own honor,In the name of love.There is something beautiful,About dying a villain.

I Once Shared Your Name

I once shared your name, A badge on my chest, With such blinding pride,How could I have known,That behind your smile,And your soft kisses,Our name you whispered,Was laced with poison,Cold-brewed and potent,Born from self-loathing,Carried in your soul,Until, finally,I reached for your hand,And caught only air,You called me a fake,An idol of hate,Projected on me,A lifetime … Continue reading I Once Shared Your Name →